even though saving you sends me to heaven.

Stop hating yourself. Cause I know someone who don't.
Stop running away from your problems. Cause I know someone who wants to help you.
Stop pretending. Cause I know someone who can see right through you.
Stop living in an illusion. Cause I know someone who wants you in his dreams.
Stop scowling so much. Cause I know someone who fell in love with your laughter.
Stop frowning so much. Cause I know someone who adores your smile.
Stop blaming the world. Cause I know someone who is willing to take the blame to make you happier.

If only you open up your eyes, you will notice there is someone who will always be by your side. He is near, never far away because he wants to hold you. To guide you and help you through good and bad. He wants you to notice him. If only you knew how much he cares for you.

If only.

This part of my life is call "@&#&(@%(&!(@%^#^&&!&"

I feel so fucked up right now. Everything and anything feels so shitty. Always feeling so negative and sluggish. School life isnt working out so well. In fact, I'm starting to lose interest in studies. I just feel like locking myself in my room for months. No stress about anything and everything.

Anyways, last Saturday I went to celebrate my friend's birthday at phuture. To cut the story short, I realised 90% of the dancefloor are occupied by men. It's friggin ridiculous, seeing how hard those men are trying to salvage ladies from that 10%. It made them look so desperate and stupid. Some of the girls love the attention, while some tried their best to squeeze out of that pithole of 'dicksrubbingagainstmyass'.

I can't dance for nuts, so I just sat at the bar and drank some Shirley's temple and the classic ol' coke(non-alcoholic).

Stoopid, just so so stoopid. And I wondered what the fuck I was doing there? If it wasn't for my friend's birthday, I would be at home snoring soundly.

My throat hurts. Muthafucker. Damn the weather. I think my thyroid glands not working well. Since I'm always feeling like crap, I guess that must be it. A simple blood test might resolve the problem and probably be on medication for life. LOL!
I don't know about you, but something must definitely be wrong. I can't be feeling this way for such a long time. I understand some people have their bad and good days, but in my case, it seems like everyday is a bad day! Sometimes for a reason I may understand, while most of the time I feel pissed for nothing. Strange huh?

Love is such a complicated game. It really is. If you once held someone so dearly before, it will always come back to haunt you one day. Even the smallest things that were left behind would mean alot more than ever as time goes by. Even the smell of his/her skin would remind you of everything you both once had. Her smile will always stay with you for another year which revolves over and over again. When you think you've moved on, you realise you're actually living a life which you can never leave behind.

She once had this scent, which I would never forget. I'll always have a soft spot for her. :)

"I feel fine and I feel good
I feel like I never should
Whenever I get this way
I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for the final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say
Every time I see you falling
I'll get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for the final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say"