Nowadays I'm feeling nostalgic. Some of us may have sweet flashbacks but all of mine are not as beautiful as a bed of roses. I'm forever blacking my lungs out by the thought of it. Those last words you said to me seems to be embedded in my mind. And I congratulate you for it.
Those words had a huge negative impact on me. It really affected my social life and self-esteem for quite some time, but I managed to pick myself up, get a hold of myself and force myself forward. You had your million ways to be cruel and I never seem to get enough of it. I tried to make things work even in such a situation, but you can't seem to appreciate it.
Anyways, today was a hectic day for me. Woke up early, and went for a soccer tournament. Too bad we lost, but we did had fun. After that, is back to the studio with the band to work on our original. I must say, it sounds great, and so does some of my friend. Will upload a raw version of it when we finish recording it. Someway or another, drumming makes me feel happy. Everything doesn't seem to matter when I groove to the beat of a certain music. Something about this passion and the band makes me feel different and elated.
Just a random topic. During the soccer tournament, my team-mates and I had a conversation about our 'dream girl'. May it be about what kind of hairstyle or apparels the girl love to wear, the smell of their perfume or the tone of their skin. In case you're wondering, this is what I had to say about my 'dream girl'.
"I like her to be quite fair. Tanned would be fine too. Have this curlywurly puffypuffy hair, somewhat like Alicia Keys in her 'no one' music videoclip. Have this chinese look so people will mistaken us for a chinese couple. A 3/4 floral skirt and a pair of slip on shoes. A cute headband to hold up her puffy hair would make her look adorable which goes well with a simple t-shirt of tanktop. Plus, she must love me for who I am and not for what she wants me to be, appreciate the fact that I am trying my best to provide and care for her and for our relationship's benefit."
It sounds a bit far-fetched but the topic IS about your DREAM girl. Come to think of it, I saw this dream girl once at the airport when I was working there. She looks sweet and adorable. With the headband and everything on. She had her grandma's arm clipped to her arm. How sweet is that?
Well, like gravity keeps everyone's feet on the ground, I have to accept the fact that in life, you can't always get what you want.