Spent the whole day at Simpang Bedok with nenek, mom and my lil bro. Seriously, I was just too bored at home. Nothing exciting happened though.

Just a random post. Being single has it's ups and downs. The advantages are, there are no strings attached and we can do whatever we want to. Without the feeling of guilt and your conscience creeping up to you from time to time. You can expand your circle of friends without someone to nag at you and go through the typical inquisition which always questions your loyalty and honesty. At the same time, even with this freedom, we tend to get lonely. Your handphone never beep as much as how it used to when you had someone in your life. You have no one to send you a simple good morning message or a simple sms such as,

'Hey dear! Watya doin? Hafya eaten yet?'

I kinda miss those old days. When I usually get myself into silly arguments with her over a small matter such as why I did not reply her messages and she thinks I was with another girl. It sounds silly, but that just shows how much she really loves me. I swear, I never took advantage of her trust.

But sometimes, I am happy to be single. I have more time for myself. Yet recently, I always feel lonely especially when you're alone at home. I had this random conversation with my close friends, and they told me to start dating or find someone. What they don't understand is, it is hard nowadays to find a love one. They said, my way of life is unhealthy and maybe if there is someone in my life, she could help it. I don't mean unhealthy as in I go for late night clubbings, drinkings, womanizing, but unhealthy as in, doing unneccesary stuffs when I get bored or lonely. It might be me, but girls who have plenty of guyfriends is a huge turnoff for me. They are so full of themselves. Unfortunately, there is someone out there whom I tried to have a shot at.

I met love, we shook hands and he pointed the middle finger at me when I turned around.

So I got over this as I feel betrayed and foolish. How could I jumped off blindly? She knows I'm the type of person who is quick to get 'attached' to someone. With that in thought, she took advantage and played me out, and she's not the first one too.

That's why, its hard for me to find someone. Someone right.