Recently, had a phone conversation with a close friend. Talked about her problematic relationship. Its obvious she's too naive and giving in too easily to her feelings. Moving on seems impossible for her.

Some guys just don't appreciate the fact, how much the girl sacrificed and went through, just for him. If you bite the dust, you expect her to be there, but after she helped you off your feet, you are quick to brush her aside with your eyes lingering somewhere else. Lingering about another girl to play around with.

Secondly, love should come naturally. I come to understand and accept it that way. Sometimes, I am too quick to judge or jump the gun towards someone, but learnt to quickly take a step back. With that in thought, I got used and made a fool of. Took it as a lesson learnt with a hardened heart.

Alot of people wants me to start dating. They claim, I need someone special to be by my side at this point of time. Some claim I am not serious in life and am too 'happy-go-lucky' thus am afriad I might slip into a hole on the road one day with this attitude, whatever that means. Some even tried to matchmake me without my knowledge. It's irritating.

I'm happy with what I have today. A broken family, a stressful academic life, a boring routine, my head is always filled with negativity and life can't be better. Sometimes I wonder, what does it takes to have happiness? Should I trade everything just to see everything perfect? If I have to, I would. But that isn't one of the options available. Don't you just wish you are in my shoes right now?

:)

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